large zippered mom jeans

I brought my dress home saturday! And I am going to be selfish and say that we should have a girls night so I can try it on again! I love it. And of course I'd have a girls night to see you all :) Things are moving along. I still would like the guest list to be like 100 ppl shorter. My mom and I worked on shaving it down today... we ended up with 11 more than when we started... huh. Would not exactly call that a success. I'm giving up... its going to be big and I'm going to be terrified. But its one day it will be fabulous and then it will be over and I'll be in Cancun thinking "wow i cant believe its already over!" Of course I will be laying by the ocean with my man at that point very relieved that it IS in fact over. Can i just say i hate 90% of it? Bringing my dress home sat was the most excited I've been over any of it but later in the day had arguments with the fiance and myself about the wedding moneys and things i dont want, stresses, etc. I understand the man hates this stuff but he should understnad I dont exactly love planning and i need some moral support (which he is usually great at but not this day). I'm chugging along... if I think too much about planning and all i have to do to finish school, and trying to get a job before the wedding (and be able to take immediate time off from a new job!), and moving him in a new place in july, and all the stuff in between... i get really overwhelmed. One day and one plan at a time. Did I say that I am not a planner? I hate planning even dinners. or freak... what to do on my days off! I have kinda worked on a wedding web page thing... here is our link: www.theknot.com/ourwedding/sarahralston&traviswhite
In other news... my man got PROMOTED!! For those who dont nkow he works for a promotions company called PEP which manages promotions for companys such as P&G. For one... they re-(whatever you call it...) their annual contract with P&G... who decided to let PEP take over all of their promotions and drop the other company! So in turn they have to hire new people to take some lead roles... Travis was a manager for fem care (unfortunate for him) and some oral care. When he moves into his position he will be a supervisor over 4 or 5 ppl and in control of all oral B and P&G oral care letting him wave goodbye to tampax and always :) Which is so great for him bc he loves the oral care stuff. I just had to brag on him for a minute. I am so proud of him!
So... i missed girls night. How bout we plan one like more than a day ahead next time? and more regularly! i miss my community. Not that I dont LOVE my fiance... I do.. but I'm not so much involved with anyone anymore just cuz we've been so busy uand any time we have (which is usually wkends) we want to spend together bc it is so sparce. But i need girly time too. i crave it sometimes. i know the phone works both wasy but sometimes i suck at remembering to call so call me if you think about it! If i dont answer i WILL call you back :)
TV is the devil. Why is it I have so much to do but sometimes i just want to watch crappy tv shows? One day a couple weeks ago I started watching the bad girls club. Rediculous but funny. I realized how obnoxious it was that i was watching it and decided to stop... next thing i know i am recording future episodes... who am i and what is this going on? I'm trying to take a tv hiAtus but its not working so much. I did go through today with no tv bc i had to study... but i took like a 2 hr break and searched through facebook, blogs, wedding junk, etc on the internet. So now my computer is the devil. Or hey... maybe I am the problem?... nah... its all them trying to get to me. I am going crazy talking about this like they are people. Its late... i'm regressing back to grade school when I would stay up late hoping school would be canceled the next day :)
love you all.

This is for kate: "if you wear mom jeans, pimp juice is NOT for you"
You still have that video? wasnt kyoung there too? good times

in my head..

So... I finally decided on my dress! It is beautiful and a great relief. Things are moving along. I am hoping that when it gets down to the last couple months we will have most everything done... or wrapping up.. and will maybe not be as stressful as is anticipated?
Its funny how God reveals things to you through others, isnt it? I had an experience tonight like that. I was thinking about a friend of mine and how I feel like she has no idea how precious she is... how amazing God's love is for her... and that it is not conditional. She was saying how she felt God may be mad at her bc of things she's done but ...his love doesnt decrease bc of the sins. As I was thinking about all this it kinda hit me that I too so often underestimate who I am in his eyes... ya know? I rate how I think He feels about me by the things I do... the sin in my life. Travis whispered to me one day out of nowhere "God is not mad at you". It is something I know but that I dont often believe.
I have a heavy burden for a friend tonight... is it weird to say I've almost missed that? I used to feel that a lot around certain people. And not to say that its great to feel burdened for people all the time but lately I've been so wrapped up in my own life that I havent been very in tune with those around me. And for that I apologize. Life is different... and it will only change even more. And I am very excited.. i will be living life beside my best friend in just 8 months. But its so easy to become so self-centered and I dont like feeling like that. I realized tonight that I have the most powerful thing at my grasp (we all do) that I havent been taking part in... PRAYER. i underestimate the power of prayer. And in this day when so many are hurting, and even friends with everyday issues, and bigger ones... surgeries, broken hearts, new jobs, money issues.... prayer is so important. So pretty much I realized my deep need to communicate with God in prayer and plead on my knees for my friends.

I start classes tomorrow. In 6 months I will be finishing up school preparing to graduate. In 7 months I will be brain-fried hopefully ready to take the nclex (state test). In 8 months I will be getting a new job and preparing to get married. I am excited, anxious and scared.

I'm done blogging for tonight..