the case of the overwhelms

Clinical has been cancelled thursday and friday due to my instructor being ill. It is nice that I have a few days to catch up but I feel like I am drowning in all the stuff I have to do! I know I am making progress but I just cant seem to finish and on top of it all we are getting extra assignments for these days we are off. But the assignments take hours to do. Or maybe I'm just slow. Just recently I've been thinking more about my honeymoon/vacation that is in just 5months and I just cant wait for it to get here! Oh to breathe the fresh air and not have to study or write papers or do case studies!! Some people think it gets easier knowing its all almost over, but I think its so much harder because I want it all NOW! Its so close but not quite in reach. Like a tease. In many respects of the word (hint: honeymoon). I just needed to vent.
I think my body is preparing itself for my upcoming biological clock change (nightshift in Aug). Back inthe day i used to stay up until like 3am just because.. I just did. I like the quiet and feeling that its my free time to do whatever or something. Well Travis has kinda trained me the last couple years to go to bed early because I usually talk to him before bed (which for him is anywhere 10-11) and then i just go to bed. This week its been like midnight-1am. It also helps that I dont have to wake up at 5 tomorrow for clinical :)
I am going to bed now. I hope I will be able to stay up for nightshift coming soon.

take a breath. its all worth it and one day I will wonder who is this 60 year old woman and where did the time go? And desperately want this time back.

I am craving girl time by the way! But dont know when its possible to hang out.

the JOB

I was starting to do better at frequent postings but here I go again being slacker like.
So... bc of my mass text message yesterday many of you know that I finally GOT A JOB!! Well... i have a job but I know I have a CAREER opportunity! Which is crazy to think... this is the rest of my life! So I had a couple of interviews about a wk and a half ago and found out yesterday that I will be working on the Rehab unit of Christ Hospital. I start training on Aug 17 (the week off for honeymoon vaca 2 wks later is still to be discussed). It is night shift... kinda expected it but definitly mixed feelings about it... i hate the thought of being on an opposite schedule than everyone and not getting to spend time with my man on those days. But it helps that I'm wired to be a nightowl and the shifts are 12hrs which makes it only 3 days a week and its like $4 an hour more than day shift. So definitly some perks. I will deal with it... but i heard years of night shift= years taken off your life. So.. i guess we'll see :) It will be hard to be on opp schedules starting off our marriage but then again we will see eachother much more than now which will be great!
Speaking of... things are really coming together for the big day. I think almost everyting is at least set in motion. I'm really excited about my flowers. The flower guy is great and suggested an idea for flowers/color that deep down i wanted but thought i could never get away with. Wont be too crazy. But fun for sure.
And chrissi we did call your friend photographer and she is great... it is set!

I think i may quit childrens hospital within the next couple of weeks. Well this scheudle ends april 11th so it may be my last day. I just really wanted to solidify a job at christ before i quit... but it will be nice not to have to worry about scheduling days and getting enough hours in, etc. My dad is starting back to work this weeks so I may work like a day or couple during the wk with himand make more than at childrens anyway. This way I can focus more on studying and graduating!! (june 19th!) then I'll take a couple weks off after that and lock myself inside to study for state boards. Hopefully I pass and can have some time off before preparing for wedding (aug 29) and starting my career (aug 17). OH and sometime in there travis will be moving into our apt in hyde park near crossroads church... maybe early june actually.

i miss you! life will be so weird post wedding... SO many life changes! Just glad I have such a great man. He really helped me through this whole job thing and really helped coach me through interviews and what to do next. I dont think I would have gotten it without him! Thanks Travis!

love you all.