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A gorgeous cathedral on top of a hill in Paris.

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Eiffel Tower in Paris! Isn't it beautiful?!

lets have a girls night...

yes I've slacked a few days. THere is no way i could write every day- I'm really not that interesting, i promise you.
I love my friends. THeres not a specific reason i say that- I just felt like it. They are ALL fun to talk to. And eat ice cream with, and lay out in the sun with, and watch movies, stay up late, gossip about boys with(cuz i do that ALL the time :) you know it).
By the way... when is our next girls night/80s movie night/pool party/blue ice cream run?
I wish people were more passionate about thigns. Especially myself. It makes life so much more fun and interesting. If only i were passionate about my future plans... what i wish to achieve in college... I hate it. Why even choose a major if most likely i will change it anywyas? I know Ive vented about this before on here. BUt it just irritates me. Its more frusterating to me i guess. Beacuase i really dont know what to do about it. I sincerely have no clue what to study in college. The question i usually get after that is "well do you have any interests?" Well of course I do! I AM a living, breathing human being. I'm not a freakin robot. BUt just because Im interested in something dosent mean i want to make a career out of it for the rest of my life. I like to people watch- is there a career centered around that? If there is, please let me know (did you sense the eye rolling?). I dont know. and Frankly, who cares right now. Yea, yea... I'll figure it all out... trying ot listen to my own advice.
You know whats really humorous to me? How there are so many people with blog accounts now- thanks to chrissi alice. Its funner now that there are more people circulating around here.. and more fun stuff to read and cute pics. I need to get the ball rolling on putting pics on here. ( i just used a cliche phrase... ha ... i hate cliches).

You know what I love? Romans- in the bible. Especially from the Living Bible...
"...For we dont even know wat we should pray for, nor how to pray as we should; but the Holy Spirit prays for us with such feeling that it cannot be expressed in words."
Incredible.
I've really fallen out of reading lately. I dont know.. i just havent had that desire like i used to. I'm trying to get back into it. I really need my quiet time back.

I love you all.

me humoring you

A kindergarten teacher gave her class a "show and tell" assignment.

Each student was instructed to bring in an object to share with the
class that represented their religion.

The first student got up in front of the class and said, "My name
is Benjamin and I am Jewish and this is a Star of David."

The second student got up in front of the class and said, "My name
is Mary. I'm a Catholic and this is a Rosary."

The third student got in up front of the class and said, "My name
is Tommy. I am Baptist, and this is a casserole."

day 2 of consistency

So I'm ordered to stay consistent in updating my blogs. Mostly for my LA friend.
So tonight i went with the brother[s] (mine) to a cookout they had at Landmark for graduating seniors. It was fun. They played wiffle ball- i played one inning and realized i didnt like humiliation so I decided to sit out. I met a friend of 24 yrs of age. We are to have lunch friday. She's cool. I never have any friends my age. Its fun to have conversations from people with more experience in life I guess. It doesnt mean i dont like my friends of younger ages. They are just as fun- but somehow i always end up the youngest in groups. This week will go fast. I have a lot i want to do... layout and swim, hang out with a specifically cool cat and take pictures, catch lunch w/my aunt, go to kings island with my girls, go see my 2 little cousins at my other aunts house, and have lunch with my new friend. Oh also church wednesday and landmark's coffee house thurs night. We'll see if i accomplish my missions for this week.
I really want to start a memory verse for the week. We all need to memorize verses. I'm so horrible at doing stuff like that, especially without someone on my case about it.
Anyone have a good one to start us/me off?
Give me some feed back... someone comment like a cool life story or funny thing that happened. Something! My blog is so boring. But I love it anywyas. Good way to keep in touch.. right cAlice?

Maybe someday I'll learn my purpose in life... other than entertaining others by my lame stories :)

Catch ya later...

for all you eager readers...

I apoligize for not writing more often. I guess I just think about what's going on so often to myself that I forget nobody else knows.
My grad party was today. Thank you to all who came! It was awesome to see everyone. There were a ton of people there but actually i expected more- perhaps some folk from school. But its all good.
One of the best gifts I recieved today? My brother got us tickets to see Coldplay at Riverbend in August!! How awesome is that? I'm so excited. And no, I just cant hide it :)
I got some cool and unexpected gifts. The most bizarre? M&M gave me a hotdog candle. It was funny when I was going through cards and stuff with some fam and they looked at that candle like: what the crap... but they dont know M&M. She's just funny like that.
I guess I'm expected to have future stuff figured out here sooon... yea still dont. LIke I've said before...whats the point of even going to college with a major when the statistics that i would keep that major arent promising?
Maybe if i opened up more like i do in my journals i would have more to write about. But maybe not, theres not much I dont write in here i guess.
otherthings to write about? Boys...
I'm so sick of my parents (esp. my mom!!) trying to hook me up! Theres this family that ive known forever and they ahve a son a yr older than me and his parents have ALWAYS given not-so-subtle hints about us basically getting married. In the past my parents ahve defended me- or at least did when i was around. But today my dad was joining in and my grandma wanted to take a whole bunch of pics of us together! It drives me absolutely CRAZY. They dont understand... if you want me to be in a relationship that will NEVER work, then yes, you can be all up in my businass. Otherwise, well you may introduce me to someone, but please back off.
By the way... I'm not sayin gthis to hint to anyone specific or anythign. Just venting about the parents.
My mom is crazy. She always picks out these weird looking, or better yet, GAY guys at restaurants or wherever. A few months ago was at PFchangs and she said he looked like johnny depp in his younger days. HECK NO. He was so ugly. Well maybe the guy was nice and all but seriously mom, johnny depp? Maybe she needs another lazer-eye surgery. Check this out.. the last one we were with some fam driving home from Philly when we stopped at a cracker barrell to eat. She was whispering to me very loudly about our waiter being cute or something. Little did she know how untalented she is at deciphering FLAMERS. Yes, I believe he was gay. So I give up on my mom finding my man. She did it for my sister but I'm a very different person with quite opposite taste.
Geeze my brother has some awesome looking friends :) Too bad they're like all taken... and that they're my bro's friends.. that could be weird...

Hey so did you hear that Seal married Heidi Klum? Do you think she'll take his lack of a last name? Heidi ...
My sis and I have been laughing about that. It's sorta lame but I think its funny.

I'm sure theres gotta be more dirt to write about... later.

i love you

SA

starting life

Yay I graduated. Yesterday. It feels sort of weird being graduated even though I've already been out of school for 3 months. Its like during those 3 months was a break and I didnt have to really worry much about anything. But now that we're entering the summer months it means I really have to get serious with my decisions. I'm such a procrastinator... but I'll worry about all that later :)

Someone told me the other day that highschool is the best time of your life. What a letdown. I'm gonna have a really crappy life then.
-I'm not dumb enough to actually believe that. Highschool couldve been really fun. I just didnt put in enough effort to get the "fun" out of it. If I cared then maybe I would feel really regretful right now as I look back. Fortunately for me I dont care.

Oh if you read this and havent heard, I am having a grad party at my house on sunday, june 5th from 2-6p. If you need directions or something call or email.

Welp, I guess thats it. Signing off....
you know it

new york is fun

The Red's won. It was a fun game. I guess this means we should go to more games and maybe they'll start winning.

College update?... Cincinnati Christian UNiversity or Temple Baptist College (could potentially get in for almost nothing bc my grandpa is a trustee)
Sort of feeling uneasy ab. Temple for some reason- maybe bc its so small (150 ppl) and they only use KJV, and they have like 3 or 4 majors. But then again, i have no idea what i will major in so I'm not that picky at this point.

Random: My brain feels like jelly a lot of the time when I think about the future, or anything responsibility related, really. I like to sink into unreality.

I went with some fam to Philadelphia this wkend for my cousins grad party. We went to New york city on friday- it was my first time. I really liked it a lot but we were rushed bc there wasnt much time and so much to see. Some of us also went to downtown Phillly like sat. night like to see the historical stuff. We got lost a few times too and thats always fun. Lost in downtown Philly at night with my dad, sis, and bro-in-law, in a 12 passenger white van with a Boone, KY liscense plate. Ghetto.

Love? Who the heck knows. I dont want to screw anything up.

Have you ever thought about starting a relationship with someone you already know but terrified bc you can see it turning serious so quickly and you woudlnt know how to break it off bc you dont think he's the one for you?
No?
Me neither...

I got my KI pass finally. Publicly announcing to anyone wanting blue ice cream- call me!
-i dont mean to rub it in c.alice. You are the best blue ice cream friend ever and no one could ever take your place :)

Graduation is sunday! STill looking for white shoes- i never wear white shoes. This is craziness.

And thats my update.

I love you


I'll tell you in another world when we are both cats.

thinking of blue ice cream

Graduation is irritating. I've been trying to get my announcements together and sent out and it takes FOREVER.

I need to get a kings island pass soon. LIke within the next 3 days... right.

I must say it over and over again for myself: God is in control. yes, God is in control.
He leads. He teaches. He loves unconditionally.


I miss my friend already.

I love rainstorms!

Hey All... Its been awhile for me on here, i havent been very consistent in writing.
I finally sent in my entire application to CCU last week. I must still apply to Raymond Walters and i guess thats all. We're still working on that whole decision thing though.

Read Blue Like Jazz if you havent already its really a great book..and funny too.

Graduation is sunday, may 29. SUNDAY NIGHT--isnt that so weird? Who has graduation on a sunday night? So I'll probably have my party the next saturday like june 4? I had a party last week with Carol and that was totally fun, and thanks to all that came..we didnt think anyone would show. But i have to have a party for like all the ancient family friends and all too at my house. It'll be fun though. But I dont really want to graduate yet. I like being out of school whne everyone else has to go. There's less traffic everywhere. And less people to run into when I'm at the store or something. But I'm glad summer is almost here. It's almost tan time!

My chrissi alice is leaving sooon... my blue ice cream buddy. I am tempted to sneek in her backseat and travel along. She will be greatly missed. But when she comes back we'll party all the time:)
And yes, cAlice ... it's YOU I'm looking for...
Or I'll just hop on one of my 300 camel fararis with air condition and come visit with my arabic husband.

Anyways, enough of this nonsense that nobody else understands.
It's time to depart... I need to go call someone that has cancer.

Love you.

blue like jazz

"I was wondering the other day why we turn pop figures into idols? I have a theory, of course. I think we have this need to be cool, that there is this undercurrent in society that say some people are cool and some people aren't. And it is very, very important that we are cool. So, when we find somebody who is cool on television or on the radio, we associate ourselves with this person to feel valid oursleves. And the problem I have with this is that we rarely know what the person believes whom we are associating ourselves with. The problem with this is that it indicates there is less value in what people believe, what they stand for; it only matters that they are cool. In other words, who cares what I believe about life, I only care that I am cool. Because in the end, the undercurrent running through culture is not giving people value based upon what they believe and what they are doing to aid society, the undercurrent is deciding their value based upon whether or not they are cool."

-From the book "Blue Like Jazz" by Donald Miller.


"Eminem believes he is a better rapper than other rappers. Profound. Let's all follow Eminem."

be thou my vision

Be Thou my vision, O Lord of my heart
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best thought by day or by night
Waking or sleeping Thy presence my light

Be Thou my wisdom and Thou my true word
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord
Thou my great Father, I, Thy true son
Thou in me dwelling and I with Thee one

Riches I heed not nor man's empty praise
Thou mine inheritance now and always
Thou and Thou only first in my heart
High King of heaven my treasure Thou art

High King of heaven my victory won
My I reach heaven's joys, O bright heaven's son
Heart of my own heart whatever befall
Still be my vision O Ruler of all


No matter what I do to him or how long I'm away, he's always there and has never moved, it is I that walked away.
He knew I would come back. And he is always faithful to never leave me when I seem hopeless.

so much going on

This is sorta a reminder for me but these are some things coming up...

THIS WEEK:
Friday night (4/29)
-k new's bday party
Saturday (4/30)
- shelley marshall walk (memorial walk for teacher that died a few yrs ago at mason)
-work a merch table at the underground
Sunday (5/1)
-church a.m.
-carwash
-"youth" service (I'm so not singing by myself if youre reading this)
-Grill out

MAY 7- GRADUATION PARTY (email me if you know nothing about it)
(may 9= katies bday)
May 14- Mother/daughter lunch at my gpas church
15-movienight at the oak THE INCREDIBLES
(may 16=mama's bday)
21-22-out of town
23- reds game
28- skillet/kids in the way concert!!!
29- GRADUATION finally


And that pretty much wraps up the month of may. I had to record that somewhere so i dont forget it all.
I've been in a funk lately and i hate it. I'm like feeling the pressure of growing up and reallywanting to neglect any current or future responsibilities having to do with people looking up to me or expecting something from me. It's all very selfish. It will pass. I hope. How great would it be to be 4 or 5 again and have no idea whats going on ever, much less actually care. I would love it. But since I can't do that, for now I'll just drown myself in movies, dreams, anything that can take my mind off the reality of the busyness of life every once in awhile. I love to be off in a "different world", even for hours sometimes. Not recognizing fully who i am or what I'm supposed to be doing or why. Losing all concept of time and having absolutely no care in the world.
I'm sorry if i sound all "purple haze" druggyish. I'm clean, I promise you that.
Anyways, I'll get over it. I just dont remember seeing "crazy" in the job description of being 18.

So yes, changing the subject, busy weekened. Sorta wishing tomorrow wasnt friday already. But I know one person that will be ecstatic when tomorrow, april 29 comes.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY K.NEWS!! You are so great.

end.


c.alice i will miss you so much

show the world the real you

We make lists of things we want to accomplish before we die.

I want to have changed someone's life.

so many things

Never reaching what I want to reach
Never being who I want to be
Blaming me when I fall and fail
All my dreams splintering
Under my fingernails

I’m empty, lonely, and accused
Accused without a word
My fingernails are chipping down
From clawing in the dirt
I’m so lost, lost and confused
I threw it all away
How can I be beautiful
When I am so afraid

Never reaching what I want to reach
Never being who I want to be
Blaming me when I fall and fail
All my dreams splintering
Under my fingernails
All my dreams out of reach
Under my fingernails

I watched it all slip through my hands
My brokenness revealed
I’m so proud, I’m so proud
I’m crying to be filled
I’m killing, destroying the plague
That’s killing me away
I’ve got to live, I’ve got to love
Like I am unafraid

Never reaching what I want to reach
Never being who I want to be
Blaming me when I fall and fail
All my dreams splintering
Under my fingernails

All my dreams out of reach
Under my fingernails

I’m wasting, wasting every moment
I want to be tasting
Tasting every moment with you
I’m suffering, I’m bleeding, on my knees
Who’s going to save me?
Suffering, bleeding
Save me from this pit of frailty

Never reaching what I want to reach
Never being who I want to be
Blaming me when I fall and fail
All my dreams splintering
Under my fingernails

All my dreams out of reach
Under my fingernails

Never reaching me


Fingernails-- SKILLET

Cool verses from Ephesians

I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. (Eph 4:1,2)

In your anger do not sin; Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry. (4:26)

Do not let unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to thier needs, that it may benefit those who listen. (4:29)

Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved chldren and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God. (5:1)

For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as chldren of light (for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) and find out what pleases the Lord. (5:8-10)

Be very careful then, how you live- not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is. (5:15-17)

getting close

Update on college...
I really want to run away whenever this comes up but I can't do it anymore. I'm running out of decision time. And I'm sorry to tell my girls that are pushing me to get out of my house that I most likely will not go away. You can lecture me all you want about independence and college life and I understand totally what you are saying. And the money thing--I shoudlnt worry about it--I know, i know. But i do worry ab. it. And if I stay here and work for at least a year or two, I can save enough money to get a nicer car and have more freedom to like travel or whatever.
So... some options right now are:

Cincinnati Christian University- live on or off campus
Raymond Walters- not most likely anymore
Temple Baptist College- small but it IS an accredited college...I'm still looking into it

Then there's also a mission/discipleship college in HAWAII that's only like 5 months long.

I feel like I'm getting closer to a decision. But I'm still some paperwork away from all of these schools.

We'll see.


"Don't ask yourself what the world needs, ask yourself what makes you come alive and go and do that, because what the world needs are people who've come alive." John Eldredge

Come My Way

Hundreds come from everywhere
Just to see your face and touch the healer's hand
Desperate, I push through the crowd
If I could touch your clothes
I could feel your power

Come my way

Please look
And notice me
Just to release my pain
Just to know your name

Come my way

I'm out of touch
I'm out of reach
I've got the faith to believe
Am I out of touch or out of reach
What would it take for you to walk towards me

I'm out of touch, out of reach
But I'm running towards you and it's all I believe

Come my way

Just a touch


By Skillet

random saying of the day..

Could God drink so much secret juice he would get sick?

Happy surprise birthday Cindy!!
I love yoU!


Today is the tomorrow we worried about yesterday...