i see heart stars

You know how some people say "I'm seeing stars" like when they fall down or whatever? Well.... I see hearts. Or "heart-stars". I feel like I am floating in the clouds with the hearts floating above my head except that I am not in the clouds or daydreaming... or sleeping. I am in real life just being a girl and experiencing an amazing, healthy, such a blessing of a relationship and I have been expressing more honest girly emotions than I have to anyone aside from myself in a VERY long time... if ever. This may seem vague... but you pretty much get what I'm saying. I have me a great guy. And if you dont know him you should.
He's funny. And I like him.

a lot :)



so long jimmy fallon.... theres a new guy in town.. except his name isnt "new guy" its "since 10 months ago" guy. And he's pretty much amazing. so step off. or stomp off...like have a stomp the yard competition.. that would be joyous to watch.

One year down

Just in case anyone read that last blog... I have taken finals and passed my class! The first test didnt go so well but I killed the second one (translation: 96%). Which was pretty much amazing and shocking. So... thanks for the prayers if you sent some my way.

I can see summer just in the distance

So... I have 2 final exams on Tuesday (april 22). I would really appreciate some hardcore prayer for these exams bc passing them kinda determines what my life looks like for the next year. The exams are for my med-surg nursing class that I am not doing well in and if I dont pass I will have to retake this class this time next year which will set me back a year. I know i am fully capable of passing these tests with good grades if I would jsut get my head in the books and retain the information! So... pray I would be rid of negative thoughts and that I will pass these exams next tuesday!!! THanks :)
Love you.

side job

A friend of my mom's started a veil shop online several years ago. Up until a couple of months ago she has photographed her veils, headpieces and jewelry on manakins. She is now wanting to change all her pictures to have real people in them so a couple of weeks ago I modeled for her. Very strange to wear a wedding dress and veil and pose for pictures. If you want to see me in action (well.. not in action.. just sedentary..) here are some links to her site:

http://www.veilshop.com/1-Layer_c_20-1.html;
http://www.veilshop.com/2-Layer_c_13891-1.html;
http://www.veilshop.com/1-Layer_c_17146-1.html

HELLO!!!

Hey all!!!
Wow its been awhile for this. I have not been on it... and these are the times I should be bc I dont see anyone ever.
School.... been rough this semester. TO the point of emotional breakdowns almost every week bc for awhile I thought I would fail out and I would sit and think about plan B for my life but couldnt come up with anything I could see myself doing for the rest of my life for decent money. But the past couple weeks though I've been okay and accepted the fact that God brought me into this program and he will bring me through it.. i just have to trust... and study... alot more than I have been.
Its been good, though. I dont hate the program like i did at the beginning of this semester. I hated it bc at the hospital we have clinical working with adults and elderly and I do not want to work with adults. But it has been really good to learn so much this semester and I like interacting with the patients (most of the time). By now we pretty much have all the nurse's duties with clinical... we give meds (including IVs), give injections, tube feeds, catheters.... etc. It still freaks me out to do much of that but I'm becoming more comfortable as the weeks go on.
I have like 3 more weeks or so of class left then 7 weeks of summer classes... then summer break!! I am totally counting down.... cannot wait to enjoy the sun!!
SPeaking of the sun.... many of you prob dont know that my sis and dan are moving to tampa, FL in the fall bc Linz got accepted into a Grad program there. I am excited for them to make the move and bc I get the basement when they are out :) but I will miss them so much. not like I really get to spend much time with lindsay right now but still.. more than I will when she moves. And it will be so quiet around here! I am tempted to invite ppl to live here bc it will be so boring... just me and the rents. I dont know what my dad will do without daniel... his best friend :) But we'll make it. My parents want to eventually move down there with them in years to come but for me.... dont really see myself down there permanently...we'll see. I'm only 21 and have much more life to live here I think.
THe boy..... Travis and I are doing really well. I admit that I have not found that balance between school, work, family, friends, and boyfriend... if there even is a balance. Its been really difficult. Believe me, last summer I did not look at this school year thinking.... hmm... i think itll be a good idea to start a new school and a relationship at the same time and see how it goes! But at the same time... I wouldnt change it... he has really been a great encouragement throughout all my doubts and breakdowns. ANd we have a lot of fun together. And hey... its been 8 months and I havent run from him :) (my girls.. you know thats big for me.. and I have an explanation/theory as to why). I'm just sorry that I havent shared him with you all... or see much of anyone in the past couple months. I miss you.

I love you all.. and look forward to seeing you and reading updates on your lives!!

nola

Hello All!! I love you. Just to let you all know I am leaving for new orleans tomorrow (sunday) will be home next sat... so please pray for me and the group and the city!! We are rebuilding this time so it will be different but I'm sure so amazing!!
Love you.. hope to see you all soon after.

SA

Quick update....

School is still crazy busy. Only a couple weeks left until finals though!! I can't believe it.. its gone so fast. After finals I will be 1/4 of the way through nursing school! That scares the crap out of me.
I love my job. I dont love having to go into work (who does) but when I'm there, although it too is crazy, I really enjoy it. THe first few days of orientation were aweful because I just watched the clock all day and it took forever for it to end. But now that I'm out of orientation and able to do my own thing I'm usually running all over the place and it goes fairly quick without having much down time. The other day I had to work 3-11:30 and I didnt sit down to eat until 11! Thats not normal though. Most of my kids range btwn a couple days old- 8 years old. I like the babies... they are cute and can't fight back as agressively. For my part though I just take vitals (listen to their heart, breathing, take temp, blood pressure) and sometimes get weights/heights, feed, change, and get the family whatever they need. If the parents are in with them I usually dont have to feed or change them... just document what has gone in and out. It can get overwhelming sometimes, especially if i have like 6 kids to do vitals on every couple of hours, then admissions come and I have to help with that, kids leave and I clean the rooms, go get things for the families, help my nurse, remember to document everything, etc.....
But I love it. PRAISE THE LORD. I finally have a job that i love. Who knew it could happen.
In other news... I still miss my friends. I'm way behind on my lunch dates with people and I'm sorry but it doesnt look like i can catch up anytime soon. Reason being my grandparents from Colorado are in town and will be for the next month which is so great... i havent seen them in about 3 or 4 years. Its tricky planning things so that I'm not gone all the time.. or more than I already am with work and school. The good thing is that I dont work that much this month.. its good I wont be gone but bad I wont have the money.
So anyway... I hope you all are well.
LOVE YOUS

Quote of the day (Tuesday): "I'd rather be peed in the face by a baby (which has been done) than crapped on through a colostomy bag"

blast.

I'm becoming one of those people who are affected by stupid sappy love songs….

I'm going to be a professional medical documentor!

hello family.
Let me just take a breath...

WOW life has been busy. School is in full gear and we will be in our 7th week which is crazy!! In 2 weeks (the 8th week) I will be 1/8th of the way through nursing school! It has gone so fast but I dont feel like I've learned a whole lot yet. I've been in such a mode that I havent realized how busy i am. But last friday it all kinda hit me at once. I planned on friday being my "catch up" on all my work day. But I have learned that there really isnt such a thing. I can catch up on maybe a subject one day but cant just sit down and expect to catch up (definitly not get ahead) in all my classes in one day. There is just too much to do and I kinda freaked out on friday. It didnt help that I was stressing a little about having to get up early for work orientation the next day and I was also PMSing along with a few other issues. At least I can say I made it through 6 weeks without a breakdown :) I tried to prepare myself for the pressure and amt of work but I think by doing that I also denied it in my head that it would be this crazy. But I can handle it.. its not SO bad but I hate not being able to see my friends!! I barely see my own family and we live in the same house. I know that everyone is gonna get really sick of me saying I cant do things bc I have to study or work on stuff.. but just get ready to hear it bc its gonna happen. My dads already sick of it. SO AM I but its my life for the next 2 years and I'm trying to get used to that fact.
So yes I started work orientation for children's hospital last sat and i also have it tomorrow. I'm supposed to start working on Oct 20 or 21 i think. I have it written down somewhere... I'm excited but really nervous too. I'm finally gonna have a real job! I can hear the applause now... thanks everyone :) No really.. stop. As much as I'd like to say I'm 100% finished with the ortho job... yeah it kinda depends if they need me... mostly saturdays bc I've given up on going tuesdays(sorry kyoung...havent really told you yet) And I have to babysit tuesday nights anyway.
So thats been my life. Big change for me. I'm hoping we can all hangout sometime soon... i say that having no idea when that can happen right now but I would really love some girl time!! (guys... you can come another time :) sorry)

Love you all. miss you.

life changes

I left off in the last post talking about getting ready for school orientation and all that jazz. Well.. that has come and gone… was very long and monotonous but its over. Now I’m in regular school mode and I’m pretty much organized just have to get my brain in a spot where I’m not constantly worrying about something I maybe didn’t read or prepare for class. There is ALWAYS something I should be doing… but if I don’t give my brain a break I will go freaking insane. I know most of you know what I’m talking about. I guess its just been different for me bc I’ve slacked off so much in the summer… so I don’t remember what the school groove quite looks like anymore. But I’m getting back into it. Not overwhelmed thus far. School has been good though. I feel like this is where I’m supposed to be. The last 2 saturdays of this month I start orientation for work and probably be starting work the beginning of October. Which I am excited and a little nervous about. But I’m so glad I’ve had a few weeks of school before starting that job.

I hope you all had a great weekend. I did!! Friday I got to go to the Bengals/Colts game.. .my first NFL game and it was so much fun. And they WON! Which was great and unexpected. Saturday was a planned study day but that didn’t happen… turned into a nice chill day though. Sunday a friend was baptized at church which was cool… I love vineyard baptism Sundays. After church went to my parents church for a picnic lunch they were all having. Then went with travis to a wedding. (some of you have met him, others just heard about.. will meet eventually : ) The wedding was in indianapolis at the zoo in the gardens… gorgeous day and beautiful wedding. The reception was at the colts stadium! Well actually it was in a building next to the practice field. SO cool! I’m still mad at myself for not getting any pics inside the reception hall. Then Monday I went to the waterpark with travis and got to eat BLUE ICE CREAM.. my first love…mmmm. And came back home later to eat with the fam. It really was a great weekend.

I miss you. I hate when life gets so busy nobody sees each other anymore. There is so much going on in everyone’s lives right now. Please know that I am praying for you. Specifically yous that have had specific doctor visits lately. And I know this is kinda a lame shout out on the blog thing but oh well.. youll get over it. I love you so much and hope you know that no matter how far away we all feel from eachother we really are just a phone call… or short car ride away.

I MISS YOU like tiger misses his claws.
I hope to see you very soon.

excited for the future

Hola Amigos!!

I am a slacker... but so are you.. except for cindy.. she is always on the ball. :)

Well.. update from last post we didnt make it to new orleans yet again. A lot of things happened... along with some weird feeelings on my end that we shouldnt be going anyway.. so in the end I know that we really werent supposed to go that week. And although I was bummed about it.. i had a strange peace about being here last week (a certain someone helped that also). I guess aside from the fact that ash and kyoung didnt get to go.. the worst part about it for me was that I felt part of my summer had been wasted on planning this trip. Toward the beginning of the summer God blatantly told me "Don't go through life with your eyes closed." I didnt understand it at first... then i realized it to be that when I focus so hard on something in the future I lose focus of what I should be thinking about today. Its frustrating because I knew I was doing that even when I was. Ever since I got back from N.O in april I have been wanting and planning to go back... so much of my summer was spent thinking about how that will happen. My "eyes were closed" to exciting things that were happening around me. And its like he told me to slow down and I didnt... then we didnt go so its like that part of my summer was kinda wasted.
Anyway... what is life without sucky lessons, right? Learn from things and move on.

In other news... This wednesday I have a riverboat cruise thing with new students from school.. and I have orientation on Thurs and Fri. I'm not actually dreading it like I thought. I'm attempting to get used to the idea of having no life :) School then starts next mon (the 20th).
So here is my schedule bc I know you all are DYING to know...but I know will prob ask me again..
Mon: 10-8 (break from 12-3.. wanna have lunch anyone??)
Tues: 7-1:30
Wed: 12-1:20 (Thank God for short days)
Thurs: 1-4:20
Fri: 12-4
Then I have a one weekend a month class (fri/sat) for 3 months.

It is a much heavier load than i have taken previously..with much harder classes. But I can do it!! Right?!! right... i need to continue to talk myself into this :)

AND>> I got my official phone call yesterday taht I am being offered a job at childrens hospital!! Bc of not being able to attend orientation due to school schedules..i wont be starting until the end of sept.. which is actually good because I was nervous about starting school and a new job at the same time.. so at least I will be semi-used to my school schedule by then. I am being offered a "stand-by" position.. which means I just have to get in 36 hrs every 6 weeks. I can pick up more shifts if I want too. Its good bc it will be very flexible with my school schedule.. i can sort of pick my own hours. The downside is that they will prob be calling me in a lot and I will prob have to say no most of the time.. which won't look very good. But oh well.. I'll deal with that when I have to.

I love you all dearly.
xoxo
SA

little angels

So yesterday was my cousin reese's first birthday. Here are some pics of her and my other cousins. They are so adorable:


Birthday girl:

REESIE...
Gorgeous eyes!!





Laurel and Reagan:

HANNAH::

My uncle Mark and Reagan
My uncle Mickey and Payton (no he is not lighting a cigar).
Shirley temple...I mean HANNAH

Little EMMA::

Fun with balloons::

Reagan losing her skirt...

Crazy cousins... Tyler, Kelsey, Megan




I hope you enjoyed my family! THey are so precious!!

happiness in song form

I had my second job interview today for the PCA position at children's hospital. I think it went well. She showed me around the unit afterward so I assume that is a good sign :) I'm still nervous about starting a job and a new school (16 credit hrs first semester!). But God will work it out. I mean he has... he will reveal all that to me later apparently... if he feels it necessary.
We are leaving for New orleans on saturday (FINALLY!!) me, ash, kyoung, and neal. THere were supposed to be more but some backed out. HOnestly, it is disappointing. Its frustrating when you have a passion for something that others don't share. I mean it is understandable though. I didnt care about new orleans until I went. And my friends have passions about things that I dont care much about.. its just how things work. But still frustrating. Its just an amazing experience and I'm sad so many are missing out. But I'm actively learning that God is so in control of everything. So there is no need to worry. "He's got the whole world in His hands." And those people really arent necessarily "missing out". Maybe there is something else they are supposed to be learning next week where they are. I'm still praying for at least one more person to go though. We leave saturday morning, so slim chance, but I'm not God... and I dont know the future.
I've noticed just recently that I have gotten some joy back. A lot actually. I used to just sulk all the time (mostly unnoticed by others, I think). I don't have a whole lot to complain about... I am so blessed.
I have really been pushing myself to do simple things lately that I normally wouldnt do... or do things that arent "me". Or outside the comfort zone. Its not as tough as I thought... and it feels really good once I get passed it.

Comic relief of the day:: I had to get a drug test today for school. I was standing next to the lady who had to pour the "specimen" into another container and I was like "I bet you LOVE your job right now" and she kinda laughed then came back with "Well... its not as bad as what you will have to do..." (meaning in nursing school). It was funny but kind of caught me off guard :)

Quotes of the summer::
"Don't go through life with your eyes closed"
"I will help you speak and I will tell you what to say"

Fav song of the week: "1234" by Feist.
www.myspace.com/feist
It makes me happy.

If I haven't seen you in awhile I MISS YOU. If I have... hope to see you again soon! For most of you that means after new orleans. We will return home saturday, aug 4.

I guess thats it. Peace out.

live and learn

Lesson of the day:

Don't put fruit in the freezer.

:)

everything happens for a reason..

So many of you don't know that I'm home yet... or that I was not in New Orleans this week. Our group leader got really sick the night before our departure and the trip was cancelled. But instead of staying around here to pout about it I went with a few friends to sandusky, ohio... to go to Cedar point! It was a lot of fun and did take my mind off of what i was missing this week. I know that everything happens for a reason and I wasn't supposed to be in N.O. this week (but i missed it so badly!!) But now that this trip was cancelled it has only made me more excited and anxious to go in August. Right now the dates are July 28-Aug 4ish... days may change. I'm excited and nervous to be the leader of this group but I know it will be good for me to take that role. There may actually end up being more people than I originally intended which is great. We are looking at about 5-7 of us right now. Please continue to pray for this as it rapidly approaches.
My friend Dyah, who went on the trip in April, wrote about the trip in the 1835 (college/career group) newsletter to encourage people to come. I loved what she said about it and the facts she included so I want you all to read it as well. And again, please let me know of anyone interested. It is so worth it.


Being His Hands and Feet

My dear friends,

Jesus is inviting you to become His hands and feet to supply his people down in the neighborhoods of New Orleans with compassion. That's all you need to bring, in addition to the ability to smile with an open heart. I went with the last crew in April, and before we left the church, Neal prayed to open our hearts so that Jesus would tell us what He wanted us to be when we were there. Neal said not to come with expectation, because God might have other plans.

So, you might be a wheelbarrow, a greeter, a sausage opener, a hugger, a listener, a shoveler, a nail-plucker, a weed trimmer, a jambalaya stirrer, a coleslaw maker, a server. You might be only a dust among other people who had gone there with similar concern as you are. You might be a baseball player in a field not touched for 20 months.

You might be the precise, special person Jesus needs to bring love and compassion to the exact, special person who’s been hurting, to the much needed area that would take more time and energy and love to bring it back to life.

I wish numbers could turn into faces, for us to know this is life, not just some lame statistics, but here are the facts of what happened in New Orleans, 22 months after hurricane Katrina:

• Less than 1/2 of the city's pre-storm population of 460,000 has returned, putting the population at roughly what it was in 1880.
• Nearly 1/3 of the trash has yet to be picked up.
• 60% of homes still lack electricity.
• 17% of the buses are operational.
• 1/2 of the physicians have left, and there is a shortage of 1,000 nurses.
• 6 out of the 9 hospitals remain closed.
• 66% of public schools have reopened.
• A 40% hike in rental rates, disproportionately affecting black and low-income families.
• A 300% increase in the suicide rate.

Source: ThinkProgress.org

I don't know whether I should laugh for my renewed spirit and compassion for the people of New Orleans or I should weep with them.
Please pray and ask God if He wants you to go and what He wants you to be. If He does want you to go, He'll give you a way.

Remember the saying that the love we receive only increases when we give away love? It's so true.

summertime livin' ain't easy

HEY

So I went to Florida a couple weeks ago. Had a lot of fun and got a tan! And played tennis..and went to universal and islands of adventure parks..and went to cocoa beach.. and went to seaworld to see SHAMU.
And it rained.

So I've had 2 weeks back and now getting ready to go back to NewOrleans on saturday. We leaving at 8 am. Its kinda strange for me to be so passionate about something this long. Usually it wears off but I'm still in love with N.O. just as much as when I was there the first time. I just pray (and hope you guys will too) that everyone gets along well and works well together, and doesnt get hurt! And I also pray that everyone who goes down seeking to serve people will be blessed, and also those being served will also be blessd and feel so LOVED! I'm so frustrated right now that the devastations down there are not on the news anymore. Not many know how bad it still is. I think a lot more people would be down to help if they did know.
By the way... as of now I am still wanting to take another trip either the 1st or 2nd week of August (there are 3 others going so far). So PLEASE if you are (or know of anyone that is) at all interested let me know. It has really changed my life. No cost for food or housing once we get down there... we only have to pay our way there and back (which would be price of gas).

In other news... school is coming along. Last week I registered for classes and got fitted for my awesome uniform (awesome as in not awesome). It will be a little crazy adjusting to my schedule at first, but like anything else, I guess you get used to it.
I've started training K.young to take my place when i leave my job (which will be when i start school). My mom has tried talking me into staying a number of times but this is the plan and we are sticking to it. I'm still thinking about trying to get a hospital job during school, maybe just weekends or something, but we'll see.

The summer is going by so fast already!! I start school Aug 15 so that doesnt leave me a whole lot of time. But I have been off since april, so I guess its fair :)

Love you all. If you read this and I havent heard from you in awhile...please let me know you are still alive!!

oh yeah..one more thing...
COME TO NEW ORLEANS WITH ME. It will change your life.
:)

ups and downs

First of all.... some stuff going on.. please pray for my family.
Also pray for Scotty Huston's mom Sharon who has breast cancer and has been in the hospital for the last week but is coming home TODAY!!

I hope you all are doing well. I feel so out of touch with many of you. I'm sorry. I know a lot of it is my fault but also the phone rings both ways. But we need a girls night/or day out or dinner or something soon. And if you havent seen baby Olivia yet GO SEE HER!! She's gonna be big before we know it. I'm hoping she doesn't reach 6 feet tall by the time I get back from FL next week! She's gonna be freaking tall though, when she gets older. SHe has giant, but beautiful & precious, hands and feet. And kate said she's already in her 3 month clothes!! Shes only 4 weeks!! In conclusion... go see her. She's a little bundle of love (disguised by the occasional fussiness and baby gas).
*So sorry katie that I'm inviting everyone over to you house :)
Love you Livi!! (If you're reading :)

So I leave for FL tomorrow (friday) will be back next fri. Recent events have caused a slight "damper" in my excitement at the moment but I am still pretty excited to get out of here and go to universal and see all that.. and go swimming and spend lots of money... wait.. i hate spending money. So I'm not excited about that part. But hopefully it will be a good time. Sorry if I'm rubbing it in :)

By the way... still planning to go back to New Orleans... the last week in june with the vineyard group and maybe also the 1st or 2nd week in Aug with.. so far its just me, ash mason, kyoung, and scotty. If anyone else is interested please let me know. Or if you know of anyone that is. I really thnk it is a life-changing experience. It was for me anyway (obviously).

I love you all. Be good. I pray that God gives us all guilty consciences about things in our lives that shouldnt be there. The feeling sucks, but its all worth it because HE only wants the best for us, right?

Love you.

plans

Lets get right to it:

So this fire inside me for New Orleans has not yet gone out... which for me must mean something because many of you know how I often do not follow through with ideas. I am impulsive at times, and unrealistic. But this one is not unrealistic.
The dates are not yet scheduled for my return there (and anyone else that wants to go!) and I am anxious to get those nailed down!! I was initially thinking of the 2nd week of June. And although that is being debated now (in my head) it is not out of the question thus far. But I think sometime in July may be better. There are rumors circulating that a group from VCC will go back the last week in June which I am totally in for also. But that wont stop me from going an additional week (or weeks..if I can be that blessed!)

So if anyone is remotely interested in going please let me konw! i would love for you to experience the preciousness that is new orleans. please help me pray for this triP!!: specifically the dates that I am supposed to go and who will be joining me. Also pray for this city. I know that things will get better down there...slowly.. but they will...there is hope.

If you want to check out Mercy Response..who organizes these things, go here...
www.MercyResponse.com

ALSO>>>>
BABY O (anna olivia) was born may 5th. (for any of you who arent her parents or have not been around me in the last few days or so:)
Im excited to see her grow and learn...and experience blue icecream from kings island with the special rainbow sprinkiles on top :)
oh there is so much to teach her. If only I knew how to teach babies sign language and we could get this communication thing going already.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATIE!!!
I know that the date on this will probably be may 10th... so it will be a day off... but really its like midnight of the 9th right now. Lets not get technical.

i love you. don't forget to UPDATE often. i love reading about you.

the end.

bentley green

So if you all watch Ellen Degeneres on a regular basis you may have already seen this... but this kid is 6 years old.. and raps... the cutest freakin kid ive ever seen in my life! no joke.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ck7KVwyQ1Bk

STORY TIME!

So today has been fun....

This morning I had to babysit at like 8 then went to this medical center in lebanon to get a hepatitus shot (that I need for nursing school). Shots have never been a big deal to me... I don't really get nervous or whine that they really hurt.. its just no big thing.

[Switch scenes...]

Earlier that morning, while I was babysitting, my mom called to tell me my dad and daniel were taking my sister to the emergency room. She's had this bump that has turned into what a doctor said was a boil (which appearantly isnt true) but the meds the doc gave havent been working and basically shes been in a lot of pain, and its just been getting worse.

So she's in the emergency room.. and I'm going to get a hep shot...

[Back to me...]

I go in to fill out all the paperwork and finally get to the room. Before the shot, the nurse goes through the whole talk about "go to the doctor if you break out into hives, start vomiting, feel feverish or achey all over your body after getting this shot. It may be an allergic reaction. It rarely ever happens, but we still have to warn people."
I'm perfectly fine. Like I said, I dont really get nervous about this stuff. She gives the shot and yes it kind of stung going in, but whatever. She said my muscle would be sore for a day or so, and thats that.
So I stand up and my mom's talking to her about other shots I have to get for school and whatnot. I'm standing there...starting to feel a bit nauseated and thought about asking for some water or something or maybe even sit down but we were about to leave anyway so I'd be sitting in the car soon...

Next thing I know I'm in peaceful dream land. I'm for real dreaming and don't really remember what about but I think it was pleasant enough. Then I hear some people talking in the “real world” and wake up thinking "where am I... oh still at the dr... why am I still here?... I thought we left?... why am I sitting on the floor and why are all these ladies crouched around me freaking out?"
Its never good to wake up like that. So yes, I fainted. They got me to get up and sit down in a chair and i started to feel nauseated again.. they gave me some juice and about 30 seconds later it came right back up (sorry for that detail). Then I had to go in this room and lay on a table while a doctor checked me out.

I am fine... I think so anyway. They said i hit my head on the scale (which I woke up sitting on). So I have a bad bruised area right on my temple... it hurts to chew or yawn. And I have bruises on my elbows and left shoulder blade. But besides that I'm fine.
I've never passed out before... it was so strange...the nap was nice though :)
The funny thing is that my mom has wanted me to schedule this appt so that she could go with me and all I kept saying is "I don't need you to come with me" like a typical teenage daughter (which I'm technically not a teenager anymore but I tend to act like it). But now that this happened I'm so glad she was there...

And they think that maybe I passed out because I didn't eat very much breakfast.. or maybe it had something to do with nerves or something (which I thought wasn't an issue for me... God is taking down my pride apparently). And if its not that.. then I dont know... I guess we will see next time I go to get this shot again in 4 weeks. I dont think it was an allergic reaction though. But honestly nobody really knows for sure.

[back to the sister...]

So my mom's thinking its kinda crazy that I'm laying on this bed, having just passed out, and her other daughter is in the emergency room... UPDATE:: getting ready to have surgery. They decided that whatever this was on her needed to be drained and Lindsay was having like an anxiety attack so they had to sedate her to even touch it cuz it hurt so bad.... and she was apparently screaming the whole time... even when she was sedated and doesnt really remember it.
They drained it and probably got like a quart of water or so out of it…

[IN conclusion..]

Lindsay is home now and feeling a little better.. but may have to be off work and school for a week or so.
And as for me… I’m ok.. head hurts.. and hey.. now I have a slight fear of getting shots (surprise!). I have to get another hep shot in 4 weeks, and again 5 months after that. They said next time to remind them about this incident and they will lay me on a table before they give me the shot… in case I decide to, ya know, fall over again.

And that’s that.

I hope you all were safe today!

Love you.