relationships are hard.

This past year has been extremely challenging for many relationships in my family. And for my husband in his family as well. Today is a new day though as I feel I can finally move on past issues my sister and I have been dealing with- by not dealing with. Yesterday we started into a casual conversation which quickly turned into truths being said and feelings hurt on both sides. It blew up into something we both felt was the end of our relationship (we will always be sisters but at that point she chose to not recognize it anymore). As the day went on she started txting me, apologizing and explaining her defensiveness. I realize this is all very vague but the important thing is that at the end of the day we forgave eachother. Our strained relationship began over a year ago. I feel the burden of all those negative emotions lifted from me for the first time. And the biggest way I could tell is that last night I broke down, again, because if I'm not angry with her I worry about her. I hate the fact that she is living in FL alone and stressed with school. I hate that she has felt abandoned by so many. I hate that she is not here with family to talk to when she needs it. And although I probbaly would not have changed how I've acted the past year due to the circumstances, I hate that she has felt that I wasnt here for her..
As strange as it sounds, it is so much easier to be angry and choose to not think about her because it hurts so much less.