things going on

So what's going on?...

I've been reading "Wait For Me" by Rebecca St. James. GREAT book. I'm in love. I feel like relationships have been a theme for me the past few weeks. I actually had one for like a week, alittle before christmas. It obviously didnt last. It was crazy though, becuase if I should date anyone it should be this guy becuase he is the perfect guy to date. WOW. We went out like everyday for like 6 days straight, and he was great, but I just didnt have feelings for him romantically and i had to tell him. I really want to stay friends with him but I dont know if hanging out is gonna work anytime soon. I was really upset about initially breaking it off too, but I'm better now. Going along with relationships...tonight at prayer meeting a lady at church was telling us to pray for her husband- he is a christian but he doesnt live it and is a bad alcoholic. She was telling all us single folk to never marry a guy that doesnt love God. My heart broke for her. I cant even fathom what it would be like to finally marry the man you feel you are meant to love, then years later have so much difficulty and wonder why you married this man. College hasnt really been big on my mind the last few weeks. I've mainly been thinking about Israel (like 46 or so dayS!) and the end of highschool- no I'm not really sad. But I need to get in my applications. I have settled on Raymond Walters. I feel that I'm not erally supposed to leave yet- not just becuase of my own comfort things here, but I feel like I need to be here for the other highschool girls. Theres no other girls my age (though, not much younger) but Ive felt God tugging at me to start up a bible study or something for my girls that I havent yet gone through with. Also, I've been making friends! (Go ME!) I started taking this girl Brittany to school on Monday that lives in my neighborhood. She is a junior and i dont think she has a very good homelife. WE are hanging out Friday. So if you see me regularly, you may be seeing her around sometime soon too. Lets be a light to this girl! She in definite need of knowing about God's love. One more thing...prayer request.... my mom found out the other day that her best friend's granddaughter has been sexually abused by her dad's stepbrother. She is only 3 years old! It completely breaks my heart that she had to experience this at such a young age (or at all!). THey arent exactly sure what happened but she has to have surgery pretty soon becuase of it. The kid that did this is like 16. This little girl is gonna have to deal with all this emotional and psychological stuff for the rest of her life just becuase this kid was a little curious and sick in the head. It makes me so mad. Please pray for her and this situation. Her name is Melissa. It's been awhile so I had to update...thanks for hanging on with me. Love you all.