in my head..

So... I finally decided on my dress! It is beautiful and a great relief. Things are moving along. I am hoping that when it gets down to the last couple months we will have most everything done... or wrapping up.. and will maybe not be as stressful as is anticipated?
Its funny how God reveals things to you through others, isnt it? I had an experience tonight like that. I was thinking about a friend of mine and how I feel like she has no idea how precious she is... how amazing God's love is for her... and that it is not conditional. She was saying how she felt God may be mad at her bc of things she's done but ...his love doesnt decrease bc of the sins. As I was thinking about all this it kinda hit me that I too so often underestimate who I am in his eyes... ya know? I rate how I think He feels about me by the things I do... the sin in my life. Travis whispered to me one day out of nowhere "God is not mad at you". It is something I know but that I dont often believe.
I have a heavy burden for a friend tonight... is it weird to say I've almost missed that? I used to feel that a lot around certain people. And not to say that its great to feel burdened for people all the time but lately I've been so wrapped up in my own life that I havent been very in tune with those around me. And for that I apologize. Life is different... and it will only change even more. And I am very excited.. i will be living life beside my best friend in just 8 months. But its so easy to become so self-centered and I dont like feeling like that. I realized tonight that I have the most powerful thing at my grasp (we all do) that I havent been taking part in... PRAYER. i underestimate the power of prayer. And in this day when so many are hurting, and even friends with everyday issues, and bigger ones... surgeries, broken hearts, new jobs, money issues.... prayer is so important. So pretty much I realized my deep need to communicate with God in prayer and plead on my knees for my friends.

I start classes tomorrow. In 6 months I will be finishing up school preparing to graduate. In 7 months I will be brain-fried hopefully ready to take the nclex (state test). In 8 months I will be getting a new job and preparing to get married. I am excited, anxious and scared.

I'm done blogging for tonight..