ccu

hello beautiful people! Yesterday I went to Cincinnati Bible college for freshman registration. YES that is where I finally decided to go. Hallelujah-- I dont have to worry about that decision anymore (unless I decide to switch next semester or next year). I was actually dreading registration for some reason. But it was okay. I am still alive. So I got to see some of the school, met some cool people, and signed up for classes. ANd I saw some people that I iwent to Israel with (Natalie, Erin-who is moving quite soon, and Dr. Weber, aka BILL). I decided to take an early fall freshman class which will start August 15- psychology. I'm excited about that class actually. It's a 5 day class for like 8 hours a day, and when the week is over I'm finished with the class and will have bagged 3 credit hours. So then i am only taking 4 classes throughout the semeseter instead of 5. I am half excited about starting school, partly nervous/anxious, and the rest of me is dreading getting up early and having to do work. Mon/Wed/Fri my class starts at 8AM. This being in Price Hill + traffic = me leaving my house around 630-45 to make it there on time. It wil definitly be rough the first few weeks but i'll get over it. I'll have to teach myself how to get in bed early. What wil save me though is having class at 11 on Tues/Thurs. Mon/Wed/FRi I am taking Bible Lands, Acts of the Apostles, and Public Speaking. Tues/Thurs i just have english. I dont think it wil be a very difficult semester. I HAVE declared a major!... its... undecided:) syke... so no, i havent decided on a major just yet. I did have to mark one on the paper on saturday so i put urban ministry. When I initially thought about that major i think i thought it only had ot do with different countries, but actually its just any inner city/urban area...whether it be downtown philly or urban areas in Jamaica. You never know... i may end up keeping that major.. .i'll leave you in suspense...along with myself.
I feel good about school. I'm just not excited about the drive everyday- not that im going to get shot or anything, just that my car will break down or something crazy. But i will be getting a lot more driving experience so my parents will have no choice but to let go a little bit more in that area of my life.
What else is really cool about that day? We were talking to the financial lady about everyhting and my mom had already set up a payment plan a month ago with whoever we have to pay, and we were planning on paying around 4800 for the semester (which isnt bad at all).. well we got talking to the lady and I had another scholarship come in that I didnt know about and we found out in total i recieved around 4100 in scolarships!! Which means we only have to pay 700.something this semester! WE were in shock and my mom has been telling everyone we've talked to about it...she's so excited. Now maybe I can start saving up more for a new car instead of so much towards college. Its so great.. by the way.. if anyone knows of any good cars for sale (Preferably low milage) around $5-8000 please let meknow! My car right now has over 152,000 miles.
I realized today how much of a mission my workplace is. My boss is Jewish. The 4 ladies working there (including me) are christians (well i know for a fact that 3 are). There is so much drama that goes on in that office though sometimes, i could just rip out my hair and scream. Its not like open fights though, its the talking behind peoples backs. And these women (other than my mom) one is in their late 50s and one is 60something. I just cant stand it sometimes. I feel like its my job to show him my witness. I am the only one there that he hasnt seen the bad side to. He knows what my family stands for, he's been around us long enough to know...which almost just makes it more frusterating bc we have known him so long and he has never changed. I just feel like its our mission there to get this man and his wife saved before he retires or I quit. I dont know how it will happen, but LORD i pray it does. He is so prideful though, and set in his ways. He takes so much pride in the things he has, what he has worked for. (This guy's like a millionaire). Partof me wants to just say it will never happen... but that is having no faith in the miracles of GOd. Please pray for this man and his wife- Edward and Sandy Desatnik. Today I just felt God place him on my heart. I WILL have faith that God will totally change this man!!

Ive been tryin gto get back into reading my bible and prayng more. It's been hard sometimes. I just dont have that desire so much anymore. I get so frusterated about things sometimes and Ive been confused about alot of certain things lately and I dont know how to pray for some things any more. But this verse brings me comfort when I feel liek that...
"We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express."

...especially like with the college stuff... i stopped praying about it becuase i didnt know what to pray for anymore. I had been praying so long for God to lead and I just didnt hear or feel anything from it towards any direction... then people say i shouldnt pray for Gods will becuase maybe I am supposed to make this decision on my own. It still is frusterating but at least taht part is over. I believe that the spirit prayed for me in this bc i couldnt and that without him the financial stuff wouldnt have worked out as well as it did. PRAISE GOD.

I love you all so much.